Here I am!!

Haven't post anything for quite a while. I've been so busy(yeah rite!). Actually I didn't post anything because I was just lazy.

Now I'm back in UTP. This will be my final semester here. I've changed my room from ground floor to the 3rd floor. The reason I changed room is simple. 2 of my previous housemates were bunch of idiots! They are worse than animal hygiene wise. Seriously..even cats bury their shits, but these people don't even flush the toilets!

After meeting En Talhah..I manage to get myself and my roomate an empty room. This room was super great compared to my old room. There are a mop hanging outside the door. Can u imagine how clean they keep this room? I got a few free stuff left by previous owner. Some thumb tag, a cap and a dustbin. But the best thing about this room is IT HAS PHONE COVERAGE!!! At least I don't have to climb out my window to talk. :)

Ok..I think thats all for now. I'll start posting again..but don't know how frequent.

p/s:I've been reading Tun Mahathir's blog. I really admire him since I was small. Why don't u have a peek? ;p

I don't know what to say to you...
And I don't know what to do...
Thinking about it again and again...
Hoping you could understand...

Our friendship was so dear...
Just like brother and sister...
Looking out for each other...
And being there for one another...

When a friendship is ending...
It brings tons of suffering...
But all I want you to have...
Is the happiness in your life...

I dedicate this to a close friend of mine. I hope she will read this..
I'm sorry if I've hurt you in any way...
Never meant for it to be this way..
Thank you for being there for me all this while..
I will always remember our memories together..
I wish you good luck in whatever you do..
Someday you will find your happiness..
And I'll always pray for it..

Back In UTP

I'm now writing this blog using my roomate's comp.. Havent set up mine since we are planning to change room to next house coz I can't stand staying with the current housemates.. They are totally non hygienic(I don't want to describe coz maybe someone will loose their appetite) and also always steal my sandals.. I bought 2 sandals and they stole even the 2nd one 3 weeks before semester end.. Pity them for being so poor til can't afford to buy even "selipar jepun". (Now I need to buy new sandals for new sem..sigh..)

I reached UTP slightly after 4pm today..the driver really took his own sweet time..even smoking while driving.. I'm happy as long as I can reach UTP in 1 piece. Owh yaa.. I HATE the new bus design with 3 rows at the back..it's really stupid and unstable.. I could see how the empy sit in the middle row was vibrating. Thanks to that I spilled my Lemon Tea drinks on my jeans.. Grr.. What is wrong with all the designers these days.. Keep producing stupid designs and call themselves creative.

My roomate is out dating now..so I'm all alone in my room. Eh..on second thoughts..I got my sponge bob accompanying me.. ^_^ And I got 4 more dunkin donuts to eat..nyum2..

I should start loosing all the spare tires I accumulated this whole sem break. So..let's play some basketball!! Raje!! Jom 1 on 1!! Tggu zac blk mlm nih!!

ps: I left something very important in KL..not like I forgotten..but I couldn't bring 'it' with me.. T___T

Hmm..how to spend my holidays??

Since Tuesday..all I do at home is lazy arround..eat..surfing..watch tv..eat..eat..nap..watch tv..play game..eat..sleep.. (eat a lot..can't even stop munching for a short while..huhu..)

I am still looking for a part-time work or something to fill my empty lazy life. My friends offered me a part time at Hotel but it is a night shift. There is no point actually..because I want to spend my day time. Prefer to sleep or hang out with friends watching football match at nite.

Tomorrow maybe going out to look for some part time job. Just to spend my time more productively instead of sleeping, eating and playing.

p/s: my nephew Aqil is coming over to my house tonite. yeay~ miss him so much! ^_^

Soul-mate

In one of my friend's comment in her blog..she mentioned about "soul mate". I really never thought about that term before.

For me soul mate is when a couple are meant to be with each other. There are a few of my close friends that I considered found their soul mate..they do everything together..share secrets together. When I look at them..I believe that they are perfect couples. But in the end..they broke up.

My perception is different I guess. So..let us see what is the definition of soul mate:

Soul lovers - someone you love, and would do anything for, and someone who loves you, and would do anything for you. And in that love, nothing is required for either person, because everything is already given. You love them more than anything in the world and could not live without them.

Spiritual and religious – concepts of reincarnation and karma. Soulmates have spent many previous lifetimes together.

Scientific soulmate – (If) a relationship can be quantified, and scored according to an internal happiness scale. A scientific soulmate is the person with whom you are the absolute happiest. You would therefore be less happy with any other person in existence.

Seems like my understanding is quite different from the definition. I definitely can't believe the reincarnation thing..but the other definitions are acceptable.

I really hope that I am my Cinderella's soulmate. Because for me..she is my soulmate. ^_^

Being apart...

Long distance relationship has always seen as very difficult to keep.. Distance means there are gap or space dimensionally between objects/subjects at a time. Long distance meaning that the objects/subjects are very far apart. I had a long distance relationship once and it doesn't work out well..

Next semester..my Cinderella is having her internship while I will be strugling to complete my studies in UTP. That means we are not goin to meet each other as often as we did. I used to say confidently that I can handle it.. But after being with her for such a short period of time..I never expect that my feelings towards her are blooming exponentially. Now..I even feel scared of being apart from her.. Not being able to see her face for a day is already hard for me. I wonder how am I goin to go through this..haha..

Yesteday..she sent me off to ERL station for me to go back home.. As we arrive..there are still about 20 minutes before the next train arrive. I bought my ticket and we waited for it together.. As we were waiting..we just sat beside each other without talking much.. But just appreciating the moment of us being together. It sounds a little bit dramatic..but it was really hard for me to let go of her hand when the time is up. I know its not like I'm goin to another country or what..but still the idea of not being by her side is painful. >_<

I'm gonna miss u so much!!

p/s: I got to meet her beloved niece tasha and we get along really well.. She's really cute and adorable. I'm happy that I played with her. ^_^

My Cinderella

Once upon a time, after the strike of midnight,
Every illusion that has been created vanish into cruel reality,
All I had left was a crystal shoe, fragile as what within me,
That is the beginning of my journey to find my Cinderella.

For me, Cinderella is a very special person,
I love her not because of her physical beauty,
Instead, I love her for her inner sincerity,
Which touches my heart deep within.

A girl wants to try on the crystal shoe,
But she didn't fit it as well as Cinderella do,
She forced herself to fit her foot into,
It ends up breaking the crystal shoe.

Then the true Cinderella reveals herself,
Bring out crystal shoe which is the other half,
I was delighted and excited in disbelief,
For that my true love has finally reached.

Finally I found the person I really love,
My Cinderella from the sky above,
Coming down using rainbow as her flight of steps,
That has become the colours of our lives.

New beginning~

I haven't written in this blog for quite some time now..
Maybe I was too busy or maybe there is nothing to update about.
The other possibility is that the stupid network in utp always makes me irritated which make me feel lazy to update my blog.

Nothing much happen in my life..maybe there are a few:

-Went back to Kedah for Raya..met my grandmother..
-Knocked down a baby cow on d way to my auntie house in Kedah
-which is also my 1st car accident
-which is also 1st accident of my dad's newly bought waja campro. >_<"
-gathering with some of my secondary school friends

That all happened during my first two weeks of raya.

But after the raya..everything gets better and better.
I get the chance to get to know someone that I am interested in.
I got the hunch that she is interested in me too.
Day by day we get to know each other better..and my feelings toward her getting stronger and I want to get closer to her.
We are so open to each other and I like her sincerity in our conversation.
She opened my heart that was locked for quite some time. I locked it for my insecureness..but yet she just walk through it making me defenceless.

Few days ago, our conversation leads us to the serious matter.
Although I felt confident, but my fear of rejection is still very strong.
She asked me if I want us to be a couple..but I suggest we try to get along a little further before decide anything. We were both being hurt before and we don’t want the history to repeat itself. I was so glad that she accepted my feeling and I was even happier after she told me her feeling towards me.

I hope this time things going to turn out fine. I pray to god for her to be the one that will brighten my day for the rest of my life. InsyaAllah…

Getting older..

When we were young:
Birthday is something very important. It shows that we are growing into a person which will someday contribute to others. Parents will make a celebration for their kids to leave them sweet childhood memories.

When we are old (very old):
Celebrating birthday is like showing your thankfulness for another year of survival..chance given by God to live. Maybe to accomplish dreams or just to spend more time with the people u love.

When we are just considered as adult:
Hurm..how do i feel about my birthday this year? I'm 22 now and I have no big achievement in my life. I'm not fully independent coz I still depends on my parents. Sometimes I feel like there is nothing to celebrate about. I dun even bother if anyone remembers it or celebrate it with me.

Last nite exactly on 12 midnite I got a msg from Alin,my younger sister. It was very unexpected..since I always argue with her all the time. In my point of view, I'm a strict brother who always push my sister to be independent. I always think that she need to learn to survive just in case...considering my parents almost in their late 50. I wanted to reply..but my ego says no. Hurm..maybe juz being stubborn. -__-"

Then this evening..I was still considering if i should celebrate my birthday. Then I got a call from my housemates wishing me happy birthday. They went to KL so I can't celebrate with them. So I juz spend my day watching anime. Then I remembered that I promised my colleague in PJH that I will enjoy my life as a student and never leave any regrets. So I asked my other frens to eat together. I treat them at Pizzahut without telling any reason why. I dun need them to wish me happy birthday..but juz to spend time with me. That the most important thing that matters to me.

Just now I checked my friendster account and there were a few comments wishing me happy birthday. I'm glad that at least there are somebody that remember it. I really glad that I asked my frens out..coz I will surely regret it if I didn't.

Farewell PJH

On the final day of internship..my boss arranged a meeting with CEO with us trainees.
I was quite nervous to meet such a big shot in person. He was very friendly and did asked us if we would like to join PJH after we grad. I personally would love to...

After that our department throw us a suprise party in our meeting room...although diorg agak kantoi in executing it. We were asked to give short speech and I took the opportunity to thanks each of my colleagues personally. I did a short video titled "Farewell PJH" and sent it in the discussion board to my colleagues to watch. Then during the party..my boss read us a poem titled "Never Farewell To PJH-UTP Interns". Here how it goes:

Shouldn't be difficult to say farewell to the interns;
We are the employer,
they're only employees.
We hire and fire,
as what meant to be.

Wouldn't be that hard to bid this farewell;
We are their superiors,
they're our subordinates.
We give the general ideas,
they should work it out till late.

Couldn't be this tough for just a farewell to the interns;
We are the leaders,
they're only followers.
We explain it clear,
they're UTP!;surely able to deliver.

But, it is not easy to say farewell to these very interns;
We are really but their elders,
and they've become more than just juniors -
braving our battle as the front liners,
not for their glory but for our honor.
Marching ahead as PJH flag bearer.

It is indeed very hard to say farewell to our interns;
They take our pain, and make it a gain,
with dignity stride and never in vain.
They eyes read struggling but they're not telling -
sign of maturing, a far cry from beginning.
Let it be know that we are proud within.

Thus, it is never farewell to our dear interns;
We are them,
they are us.

I almost cried when she read this. huhu...