Hmm..how to spend my holidays??

Since Tuesday..all I do at home is lazy arround..eat..surfing..watch tv..eat..eat..nap..watch tv..play game..eat..sleep.. (eat a lot..can't even stop munching for a short while..huhu..)

I am still looking for a part-time work or something to fill my empty lazy life. My friends offered me a part time at Hotel but it is a night shift. There is no point actually..because I want to spend my day time. Prefer to sleep or hang out with friends watching football match at nite.

Tomorrow maybe going out to look for some part time job. Just to spend my time more productively instead of sleeping, eating and playing.

p/s: my nephew Aqil is coming over to my house tonite. yeay~ miss him so much! ^_^

Soul-mate

In one of my friend's comment in her blog..she mentioned about "soul mate". I really never thought about that term before.

For me soul mate is when a couple are meant to be with each other. There are a few of my close friends that I considered found their soul mate..they do everything together..share secrets together. When I look at them..I believe that they are perfect couples. But in the end..they broke up.

My perception is different I guess. So..let us see what is the definition of soul mate:

Soul lovers - someone you love, and would do anything for, and someone who loves you, and would do anything for you. And in that love, nothing is required for either person, because everything is already given. You love them more than anything in the world and could not live without them.

Spiritual and religious – concepts of reincarnation and karma. Soulmates have spent many previous lifetimes together.

Scientific soulmate – (If) a relationship can be quantified, and scored according to an internal happiness scale. A scientific soulmate is the person with whom you are the absolute happiest. You would therefore be less happy with any other person in existence.

Seems like my understanding is quite different from the definition. I definitely can't believe the reincarnation thing..but the other definitions are acceptable.

I really hope that I am my Cinderella's soulmate. Because for me..she is my soulmate. ^_^

Being apart...

Long distance relationship has always seen as very difficult to keep.. Distance means there are gap or space dimensionally between objects/subjects at a time. Long distance meaning that the objects/subjects are very far apart. I had a long distance relationship once and it doesn't work out well..

Next semester..my Cinderella is having her internship while I will be strugling to complete my studies in UTP. That means we are not goin to meet each other as often as we did. I used to say confidently that I can handle it.. But after being with her for such a short period of time..I never expect that my feelings towards her are blooming exponentially. Now..I even feel scared of being apart from her.. Not being able to see her face for a day is already hard for me. I wonder how am I goin to go through this..haha..

Yesteday..she sent me off to ERL station for me to go back home.. As we arrive..there are still about 20 minutes before the next train arrive. I bought my ticket and we waited for it together.. As we were waiting..we just sat beside each other without talking much.. But just appreciating the moment of us being together. It sounds a little bit dramatic..but it was really hard for me to let go of her hand when the time is up. I know its not like I'm goin to another country or what..but still the idea of not being by her side is painful. >_<

I'm gonna miss u so much!!

p/s: I got to meet her beloved niece tasha and we get along really well.. She's really cute and adorable. I'm happy that I played with her. ^_^

My Cinderella

Once upon a time, after the strike of midnight,
Every illusion that has been created vanish into cruel reality,
All I had left was a crystal shoe, fragile as what within me,
That is the beginning of my journey to find my Cinderella.

For me, Cinderella is a very special person,
I love her not because of her physical beauty,
Instead, I love her for her inner sincerity,
Which touches my heart deep within.

A girl wants to try on the crystal shoe,
But she didn't fit it as well as Cinderella do,
She forced herself to fit her foot into,
It ends up breaking the crystal shoe.

Then the true Cinderella reveals herself,
Bring out crystal shoe which is the other half,
I was delighted and excited in disbelief,
For that my true love has finally reached.

Finally I found the person I really love,
My Cinderella from the sky above,
Coming down using rainbow as her flight of steps,
That has become the colours of our lives.

New beginning~

I haven't written in this blog for quite some time now..
Maybe I was too busy or maybe there is nothing to update about.
The other possibility is that the stupid network in utp always makes me irritated which make me feel lazy to update my blog.

Nothing much happen in my life..maybe there are a few:

-Went back to Kedah for Raya..met my grandmother..
-Knocked down a baby cow on d way to my auntie house in Kedah
-which is also my 1st car accident
-which is also 1st accident of my dad's newly bought waja campro. >_<"
-gathering with some of my secondary school friends

That all happened during my first two weeks of raya.

But after the raya..everything gets better and better.
I get the chance to get to know someone that I am interested in.
I got the hunch that she is interested in me too.
Day by day we get to know each other better..and my feelings toward her getting stronger and I want to get closer to her.
We are so open to each other and I like her sincerity in our conversation.
She opened my heart that was locked for quite some time. I locked it for my insecureness..but yet she just walk through it making me defenceless.

Few days ago, our conversation leads us to the serious matter.
Although I felt confident, but my fear of rejection is still very strong.
She asked me if I want us to be a couple..but I suggest we try to get along a little further before decide anything. We were both being hurt before and we don’t want the history to repeat itself. I was so glad that she accepted my feeling and I was even happier after she told me her feeling towards me.

I hope this time things going to turn out fine. I pray to god for her to be the one that will brighten my day for the rest of my life. InsyaAllah…